Dear You

Dear you..
How are you?
It has been teribble since you were avoiding me
I think I were giving you time.
I don't know if that was means - a long long time -

I'm not good at being a listener, I thought
I can't just sit down and come up with no solution
My bad, I guess.
When you told me everything that night, 
with no preparation, of course I was stunned
I didn't know what to do,
I always think that everything has its solution

Say I'm perfectionist, I don't care..
Say I'm a bad friend, now I'm sad

I know I was , so, so wrong.
I'm sorry that I have no idea that jsomething was happening on you,
I'm such a terrible friend, aren't I?

But back then, I knew I had to do something
But I couldn't do that in person
I knew you might be avoiding me

So I write and write
What did I think, though?
You hate reading.
I'm such a teribble friend, aren't I?

Now it's been days since my letter
Yet I haven't heard anything from you.
I do understand, tho, 
I'm a bad listener maybe.
I don't know.

I hope everything will be okay soon..
IF not, you know
Maybe next time I'll shut my mouth and just listen.

From your very bestfriend,
with regret

So.. Here's the thing

My name is Aileen Gabrielle, you could call me Gabrielle. 
I love reading and sleeping too much 'til I forgot about this blog for 2 years. (litterally)
But haha no, I'm kinda busy these years.
2015 has been a rough year for me, no kidding, (I probably won't tell you why)
Now that 2016 I could relax a little, even in the coming Sept I will enter my next semester.

So, here's the thing..I don't know how to edit my blog template, so I couldn't read any reader's comments (I don't even know if there is someone reading this, tho! LOL)
I am very grateful if someone is reading this. I feel like having a friend that I don't know? okay I'm a weirdo.

And no.. if you think I have no social life.. I'm not the girl in the novel, who luckily meet the popular guy. I'm just a regular teenage girl, having friends, and I love to write and sleep. (Did I just say it again?)

Okaaaaay this getting so long. Byeee.

Saying Goodbye

Oh, hello my friend..

Long time no see

How are you these days?

I know both of us have been through hard times

and we barely not talk

We used to be a great friend rite?

Or even.. more than that

But stuffs changed rite?

Or even.. everything will never be the same

The same way I used to look at you, talk to you

or the way you cheer me up

laugh until our stomach hurt

The same way we used to love each other

Hey friend,

I miss you too much

But please lemme say this out loud

Goodbye, my friend

See you, when I see you

Until we meet again

Until the path we might cross again

The Last Letter, The Last Confession

I thought the mature one

Is the one who'd give me one screenshot of advice

the one who'd make me a poem to cheer me up

the one who'd be ready to fight for me, just in case if someone hurt me

I thought the lovely one

Is the one who'd open the door for me

the one who'd sing "You cry, I'll cry" when I cried

the one who'd pick me up in the morning

and say goodnight everynight

I thought the perfect one,

Is the one who will be there if I need him, 

the one who can be somebody I realy want,

But the day I meet this guy,

I know now, the mature one

Is the one who showed me his imperfect life, imperfect man

the one who wanted to be honest

the one who knew, there'll always be enemy who hate us

I know now, the lovely one

Is the one who disturbed me all the time

the one who's never allowed me to cheat at virus vs virus game (no joke)

the one who's begging to me not to cry eventhough he knew, that he's the reason why I cried

the one who found me time, to talk and listened all those stupid-things I told him

the one who saw me in different way, and a little underestimate me, and insult me!

the one who sent me lots of delicious FOOD and chocolate, or ice cream pictures!

I know, the im-perfect one,

is the one who will always be there, no matter whether I need him or not

the one who can be him self, somebody I want to love

This is my letter, last confession

If you remember my post on August, there was a post named Honest Confession 

but this is the last .

The one, is someone who recently I always thought about

But unfortunately, we got lost

I don't know how to say, I'm bad at such these stupid things

I only could write, hope some miracle does happen.

Please Let Me

Give me the time to prove that what we had was real, and what we got wouldn't be expired forever

2014

Just a second ago 2013 started, and now it's over. 2014 came to us like a thunder, didn't care whether we were ready or not. 

We recently talked about dreams, passion.

We were, so hard to find those stuffs. It was like butterfly flied around your mind.

You don't know what to do, how to do,

But I think I find it now

I will not stop writing no matter how hard it is

I love writing

And you should try sometimes

Not to write, but find your stuff,

Which always makes you happy when you do, or done it.

Which reveal the best version of you and blessed the other.

Be Kind to Yourself

When things didn't work well

And you put yourself in a "blue dramatic life"

Sadly, noone cares. 

Slow down. Be kind and don't push yourself extremly hard,

God knows what's best.

Calm down, never give up, but be kind to yourself,

don't hate yourself